i think i've lost someone very, very important to me. at first we just casually drifted apart, but now it seems we have outgrown to the point where we might not fit again for a long time. it cannot be forced, as that only makes the space between wider. i am so sad and i wish there was something i could do, but i think it's best to just let things take their course. and i will try to let go with as much grace and love as possible.